I’ve been filling this blog with my thoughts and opinions so I figured it was time for a little update on our journey in basically every aspect. So here go…

Monday, October 23, I started my cycle which made it official CD1. {Cycle Day 1 for you commoners that don’t know infertility jargon 😛 }

I went to Cincinnati for a baseline scan on Wednesday and was instructed to begin my Gonal F 375iu that evening. From my research, 375 is a quite large amount and even increased from my first round 2+ years ago. All systems a’go.

So here’s my lineup so far of my meds –

October 25 – 28 : Gonal F 375iu
October 29 – Nov 1 : Gonal F 375iu + Cetrotide

Tomorrow, Thursday Nov 2, I’ll go back up to Cincy for a scan and hopefully my last blood work, especially since my vein busted on Monday. I’ll keep you updated if we get a set retrieval date.  Next up is Ovidrel and then Valium. Eye on the prize, #amirite?

Physically. I’m good! My stomach is full of bruises and welts but it was expected so no surprises there. Besides being overly tired, I feel prepared. I’ve had two times that I was doubled over from painful cramps that seemed like they’d never end, but only twice is pretty good in my book. In a weird way, I like having a little pain because it reminds me that things are workin’ in there.

Emotionally. I’ve been better. I started going to a new counselor to try to manage all these billions of feelings I have. My first session was a little overwhelming.. My words spewed out so fast that I’m sure her head was spinning, but I wanted to fully utilize every minute I have with her. Infertility holds so many emotions that I’m thankful for an outlet to process my thoughts and feelings with. If you’re in the Louisville area and interested, let me know and I’d be happy to share her info with you. No matter what the outcome is of this round, it’s going to change my life. I’ll either be blessed with a pregnancy or blessed with knowing God’s plan for me is to focus on Gus. It’s the closing of the door of is out of my control that I struggle with. Knowing within 4 weeks what God’s will is for me shakes me back to reality.

Financially. We’ve spent all our money on creating our babies. ‘Nuff said.

Spiritually.  The Lord is my light and my salvation – whom shall I fear? (Psalm 27:1)
I love being able to nudge deeper and rely more on God during these tough times and couldn’t imagine this, or life in general, without putting all my worries, faith and hope into Him. Pouring into my Bible is the most powerful outlet for me.

I’ll be back tomorrow with an update on upcoming procedures and dates, hopefully.  We’d love and appreciate any prayers.

XO